Goodbye Adriamycin, or Doxorubicin Hydrochloride, or whatever your name is. Goodbye Cyclophosphamide. Bye bye little fuckers. You were mean and nasty to me and you seriously kicked my chemo butt! But I should be thankful for your existence. I am aware of this.
So no AC wasn't a pleasant experience and it has been hard on me. Each round was a little different but overall I got pretty sick each time for at least a week. Near the end my loss of appetite became worse and I am now way more tired than I was when I first started. With each round I also had a painful mouth, ears, and throat. The nausea was horrible, especially day 3-5. I lost a lot of weight and well constipation ain't no fun at all.
The hair loss? Before chemo somebody told me hair was overrated and I didn't really believe it. But I think it's sort of true. I have gotten pretty used to the bald head. Of course it's sad, but it's nothing compared to the other shit we get thrown into our lap.
What will always stick with me though is that black hole, the panic attacks and the sadness. No I haven't been able to get rid of those.
So now we move on to the next round. The next challenge. Taxol/Herceptin. Next week I have two appointments scheduled where I'm hoping to find out more about these new meds and its side effects.