It is difficult to write down the entire experience. It was hard and overwhelming. How do you cope with something like this? The poison going through your body and taking over. Knowing you need to go back for 7 more. It just does not seem doable. But then again, you don't really have a choice.
I suppose I experienced the most common side effects:
- Fatigue and tiredness
- Irregular heartbeat
- Loss of appetite
- Panic attacks
- Painful mouth, ears and throat
Just to name a few.
Hair loss will probably be peeking around the corner as well within the next two weeks. The wig store knows I have started chemo so when I'm ready I just have to give them a phone call.
I realize I really need to go back to the original plan and take small steps. Focus on the next round and that's it. I do not need to look ahead because it's pretty pointless right now anyway. Going to tackle them one by one.
I'm going to leave it at that.. for.. now.. Zzzzzz.............