November 15, 2012

The aftermath

Six days later. I feel a little better and sort of back to the land of the living.

It is difficult to write down the entire experience. It was hard and overwhelming. How do you cope with something like this? The poison going through your body and taking over. Knowing you need to go back for 7 more. It just does not seem doable. But then again, you don't really have a choice.

I suppose I experienced the most common side effects:

  • Fatigue and tiredness
  • Nausea 
  • Headaches
  • Heartburn
  • Irregular heartbeat 
  • Loss of appetite 
  • Panic attacks 
  • Constipation 
  • Painful mouth, ears and throat 

Just to name a few.

Hair loss will probably be peeking around the corner as well within the next two weeks. The wig store knows I have started chemo so when I'm ready I just have to give them a phone call.

I realize I really need to go back to the original plan and take small steps. Focus on the next round and that's it. I do not need to look ahead because it's pretty pointless right now anyway. Going to tackle them one by one.

I'm going to leave it at that.. for.. now.. Zzzzzz.............


  1. Oh dear. I wish so badly you didn't have to go through this. You're in my thoughts and prayers, and I have no doubt you're going to kick the sucker's ass. Just stay strong. :)

  2. Sweet dreams, dear... Allthough you might feel alone sometimes, know there are many people out here thinking of you, praying for you and sending you love and health.
    Take care,

  3. Hey there sweet thing, hope today is better than yesterday and tomorrow is full of hope! I also hope you got my package!

  4. HUGS! You're young, your body is strong! Chemo must be terrible :( Always thinking of you! mwah

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  6. Grrrr, rot chemo... :(
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