So looking back at my previous post it would be fair to say I had a few things on my mind that were bothering me.
So yesterday when I got out of bed I figured hey this is my life we're talking about. My heart. Let's take back control. And it felt really really good.
I decided to email my oncologist instead of waiting for him to call. That same afternoon he replied. Basically he told me he wants do a MUGA scan and until the results come back no Herceptin for me.
A MUGA scan creates video images of the ventricles (lower chambers of the heart
that hold blood) to check whether they are pumping blood properly. It
shows any abnormalities in the size of the ventricles and in the
movement of the blood through the heart. Today the hospital called me and we scheduled the scan for next week Tuesday.
So there you have it. I feel a little more at ease and also very determined on finishing these Herceptin treatments. Which is kinda crazy of course... Because at first I was so not looking forward to them. But now I realize this treatment was prescribed for a reason and that is why it is so god damn important I finish every single one of them.
Of course if the results from the MUGA scan are seriously fucked up and the risk is too high... well then it becomes a different story. You see I don't want to die of a heart attack. That would be a bit ironic.